Wednesday, June 13, 2018

The theme verse

So in Kids 4 Christ we have a theme verse for our children's ministry each month. We teach the kids this verse on Sunday's and Wednesdays and with the lesson we teach we will incorporate this verse. We want the kids to not only know the verse but understand what it means and how to apply it to their everyday life.  This verse is not just for the kids it's for the leaders to which is why I am writing this post tonight.
The theme verse for June is James 1:19 My Beloved brothers know this Be quick to hear, slow to speak and slow to anger.  
- Tonight I am putting the kids to bed and I get Kate in her bed and then tell Copelan ( 2 and a half years old) to go sit on the potty. As he's on the potty i wait in his room and then i hear the plunger..so I go in and of course he says more pee so he gets back on the potty and I go back in his room to do what..look at my phone..then a few seconds later I hear the plunger again...this time i sit my phone down and I yell at him. We get into his room and he will not get his pants back on and is screaming, so i pull him off his bed and lay him on the floor and get his pants on him as he's screaming in my face. I honestly had to shut his door and take a break. When I went back in a minute later he was crying so hard and it made me feel awful...he's only 2 as hard as it may be I have to give him grace.  I so need to practice this verse...slow to speak and slow to anger. I don't want to just yell at him and get so angry..seriously..this verse hit me hard tonight as I layed with him and prayed with him and tucked him tonight.
This is exactly what I taught the girls tonight..think before we speak so that way we have time to process and pray and not get angry and do something we regret. I will remember this verse and put it into practice in my daily life.  I want to give my kids grace and be patient with them.
Lord help me to be slow to anger and slow to speak. Help me Lord to have patience towards my kids.
My actions really got to me tonight..so I am going to make a change. I'm going to slow down and yes that's easy to say right now when the house is quiet and I've had time to chill.  But for real I'm slowing down and not just enjoying being their mom but I'm going to slow down before i react to them and the things they do.  They are just kids and just learning the least I can do is help them learn and be patient with them.   I felt like I had really failed him in that moment but I know we will wake up and he will be excited to see me when he wakes up :) I love waking up in the morning to my kids no mater how tired I am.

Monday, June 11, 2018

embrace it and love it

Well I'm tired and I was hoping to be in bed by now but here I am writing a post. The house is finally quiet and I can finally hear my own thoughts. So here latley I have been going through a thing, and I can't even tell you what thing it is because I honestly don't know. Us women are emotional beings and sometimes we just don't know what's going on with us..right!?
So I've found that I've been a little off balance latley...emotional and physically.  Honeslty It's been awhile since I've felt this "crazy" When I say crazy I mean moody, anxious, overwhelmed, and exhausted.  So obviously I don't like being this way..who does!?  So I've been doing a few different things to help a little bit. As a mom of 2 little kids( a 2 year old and 15 month old) I can tend to get very exhausted and overwhelmed just by being busy all day and hearing screaming or yelling from the kids and not having a breather..I'm sure this is normal when you are with your kids all day. I don't want to "wish away" these years by being stressed and tired I so want to enjoy these kids and what they are learning. It definetley is a struggle most days to stay in the here and now and not get caught up in wanting bed time to come.
So how do you do this...here are some ideas:
try to get up earlier than everyone else in the morning ( this is hard for me and doesn't always happen)
stay up after the kids and destress ( reading, take a shower, blog, listen to podcast) 
Go outside during the day ( get the kids and just go outside for a few minutes and get some fresh air)
when the kids are playing its ok to go to the bathroom and shut the door or go in your bedroom for 10 minutes when you know the kids are doing good and just lay down and regroup for a few.
These things have helped me to be able to regroup and just breath. It takes time to figure out what is for you..I try to get up in the mornings before the kids if I can. This is hard for me but when I do I love it. Just enjoying the peace of the morning with my hot coffee and bible.  This helps me to prepare a little bi for the day. One thing that I just started about a week ago and I've really enjoyed is listening to a podcast at night.  Yes I'm tired so it's weird that I can listen to something but it really does benefit me. This is way better than staying up late to binge watch a show because I feel like it recharges me a little bit because I'm also being productive.  I will listen to a podcast while preparing lessons, making schedules, planning, blogging, or just doing research for certain things.  The podcast I listen to are by christian women who are moms and it has been so helpful to me.  I don't feel like I have a lot of community..I don't have a lot of " mom friends"  I don't get out much unless it's to the grocery store or to church. So these podcasts have been really good for me and I would definetley recommend if you feel lonely as a mom or going through a tough time in general o find some good christian podcasts to listen to.
And last but not least it is ok to shut the door sometimes...when you need a breather and the kids are playing nice or watching a show just do it. Go to your room where it's quiet and shut the door for 5-10 minutes and just breath. I don't do this everyday but somedays when it's really tough I have to have a few minutes to myself.
Being a mom is tough and at the end of the day it's nice to be able to de stress before bed.  I've found that it helps me to relax before bed.  With that said Being a mom is also amazing which is why I want to try and stay in the here and now and enjoy my kids and this time with them.  After laying in Copelan's bed with him until he falls asleep I can't move my neck without it being in pain..but I honeslty don't think about that. If it wouldn't hurt me so much I could just stay with him all night because I know one day he will be to old and to big for me to cuddle with and read bedtime stories to. The mom life is the good life because as crazy and hard as it is none of the hard stuff matters..in the moment it does..I know! But later when you have time to think you remember tommorow is a new day and probably new messes to clean up..LOL but it's a new day which means you can make new memories and just start new.
Sorry this is so long...:/
Just do what you need to do momma to love the momlife. I'm trying hard everyday to love it and embrace it..even when it's the hardest of days.
#momlife #loveit #embraceit

Podcast to check out:
Coffee+ Crumbs podcast*
Risen motherhood *
God centered mom 
The purpose show