I feel like in this post I am going to be brutally honest about my life right now as a mom of an almost 7 month old...so no judging..Please! :)
I am finally learning some balance in my life even though everywhere I look is craziness because of all that needs to be done I now know just take a deep breath, prioritize and do what needs to be done. There are chores to be done around the house, clean up the highchair from breakfast, get everything finished up and emailed out for Sunday morning, and get a shower today. Did I say shower..!!?? yes I did now you must be thinking how hard is it to shower...not to hard i guess..But when I finally think I am going to take one and relax I was exhausted so today it will happen. Last night me and Cope stayed home from church because he was super fussy from teething..so we ate dinner, danced around the house, went outside for a little bit, played then he got tired about 7:30 so we ate an apple together ( he mainly just sucked on it and gnawed a little) then walked around the house until Josh got home then I handed him off and sat on the couch soo tired.
So today will be the day..even though I am sure i will get spit up on again covered in food from his meals and maybe even get some pee on me..its ok..The shower has been put off long enough!
Who's reading this and thinking wow she's crazy glad I'm not her!? Just so you know it's all worth it..I literally am crying now as I type that sentence. every diaper, every spit up. every cry and long exhausting day is so worth it. Being a mom is the most rewarding thing..How is it rewarding? I make food for Cope, clean up after him, make dinner for us, clean up the house ( Josh helps out a lot) by the end of the night I fall asleep faster than ever. The reward..is the smiles Cope gives me, going into his room in the morning and he looks up at me and smiles so big, and just being the one he cuddles with and depends on. My coffee is cold...
It is a reward to be home with him everyday and spend the time with him and take care of my family in different ways. Wherever you are today..stay at home mom, working mom, expecting mom, wanting to be a mom, trying to figure out life, the woman who needs direction... YOU ARE ENOUGH! YOU ARE AWESOME! God is working in you and through you..let him give you rest and peace and the energy you need. Trust him! HE LOVES YOU AND HE CREATED YOU FOR A PURPOSE! Give your worries, fears, tears, joy, hectic, crazy, boring, whatever your life may be filled with give it to him let him turn your life into something wonderful and worth telling about. let hm turn your frown upside down..:)
Psalm 139 1-18
You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
