well I've been awake for 3 hours already...I decided this morning instead of trying to go back to sleep when Josh leaves for work that I would just make myself do what I've been wanting saying I will do for 2 weeks now. For 2 weeks now I've layed in bed in the mornings trying to talk myself into getting up and starting my day before Copelan wakes up...but I just can't do it. This morning there was victory! I did it at 4 :45 i got up and showered had some breakfast and time in the word. I felt accomplished...7:15 Copelan is still asleep so i pack his lunch for the day get some meat out of the freezer to thaw...me and Luna keep going to the stairs and listening because it is now 7:46 and he's still asleep..this my friends is not normal.
What do I do with all this time of quiet..? I guess I just enjoy it..enjoy the stillness and quietness of the morning before the busyness starts. you see if we don't allow ourselves time for the stillness we tend to go a little crazy. we get tired and worn out and just exhausted, and I will most likely be more tired than normal when afternoon comes but giving myself this time is wise.
We want to be wise with our choices and our time. This morning as I was studying the book of Deuteronomy I once again was hit with the thought that as a parent I need to make wise decisions and choices. My kids will see the things I do and the way I act and I want to be that example to them.
In Deuteronomy 1:21-22 Moses is talking to all the people and as he's talking he's saying "you" All the adults that were with him when they left Egypt are now dead so hes addressing all of their children. He says "you" because they take responsibility for their parents sin. So Moses addresses them as if it was them who was rebellious all those years.
- This passage is another clear indication that what we do as parents affects our children and the generations to come. I am not perfect nor will I ever be but I know as a parent I need God's guidance everyday. I will not set unrealistic expectations for myself ( like waking up everyday at 4:45 am) but I will do my best to slow down and set aside time to spend quietly in the presence of God. This will not happen everyday I'm sure of it because some days I am completely exhausted and God knows that but like I said I will try my best and if I wake up early or get time in the afternoon everyday then great but if not I will not stress. God wants us to come to him because we want to not because we have to check something off of our to do list.
