almost an hour

Its's been almost an hour since Copelan has been napping and that's pretty much a record. Very rarely does he sleep for more than 30 min during his day time naps. As I gather my thoughts as fast as I can and type them out faster than normal I contemplate on what this day has already brought and it's only 9:26 am.  It's been almost an hour since the pooptastrophe...yes it says poop! EW! I know pooop everywhere..everyone and everything is now clean. Lets just say I think we need to get some heavy duty diapers. There is so much that has to be done but I'm learning to relax. this is a daily process..If I don't tell myself to relax over something big or even little I get worked up and anxious. I'm not sure why anxiousness and anxiety have decided to enter my life. Since motherhood these 2 things have entered my life and it's taking prayer, and a lot of talking things out to help these leave. 
I feel like I'm moving so slow in life.  What do I mean by this!? Ministry, my spiritual life, my emotions, housework and just being me..it all is a daily process to not get stressed about any of these things and how slow all these things are now. Literally I can't plan things out anymore..When things are planned and they go wrong I get all worked up and lose it. I hate it when I let that happens so again getting things done is something I can't really plan out I just have to do it.
I'm fully relying on God and trusting in him and yes this is hard to do..I can't add my time with God to my to do list but that tends to happen.  Trying to fit praying in to my day is something I'm trying to do while cleaning, and feeding Copelan. It shouldn't be something that is stressed about and planned out.
Evantually things will work out and I will be able to get up before he wakes up in the mornings and start my day off having time with the Lord, but for now I will not stress but will go to God and spend time with him daily in any way that I can. Not as a plan and because I have to or should but because I want to and I so need him to help me and strengthen me. I want to know him more, I want to know my creator more and as much as there is to do it all can wait for just a few minutes. 
part of learning to relax is giving everything over to God and letting him give me rest. So this my friends is not a goal, not a resolution and not a plan this is me saying I'm learning and trying and I need God's help.  You may be reading think I am crazy or you may be right where I am or have been here before and I know this is a season and it's a season for you too. every season brings new surprises obstacles and things to learn so right now these are my obstacles and I am learning through it. In almost an hour..so much will happen
In almost an hour when life is overwhelming I will remember that God is good and he is here with me.

Psalm 91

¹ Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.^[a]
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”

³ Surely he will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
⁴ He will cover you with his feathers,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
⁵ You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
⁶ nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday.
⁷ A thousand may fall at your side,
    ten thousand at your right hand,
    but it will not come near you.
⁸ You will only observe with your eyes
    and see the punishment of the wicked.

⁹ If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
    and you make the Most High your dwelling,
¹⁰ no harm will overtake you,
    no disaster will come near your tent.
¹¹ For he will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;
¹² they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
¹³ You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
    you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

¹⁴ “Because he^[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
    I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
¹⁵ He will call on me, and I will answer him;
    I will be with him in trouble,
    I will deliver him and honor him.
¹⁶ With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”