so much coffee

Today was a rough day..Good news is it's the only bad day I've had this week. That's a huge improvement.  I don't like putting my feelings out there for everyone to know but like I said I want to share my journey to help others.
 The day started out rushed because I was going into work and my mom was babysitting so I was trying to feed Copelan and get him ready and it was later than it was supposed to be. I was emotional because I was tired and for some reason being tired really messes with my emotions. When I got to work i got asked how I was doing and cried...I can't even control the tears sometimes and i wish so bad I could. After a lot of talking to people and having an afternoon to come home and really get in the word and pray and exercise and take a nice shower I started to feel better. Today i hung some verse's up in my bedroom so I can be encouraged with God's truth and see them everyday.
 I felt better as the day went on..I now am about ready to go to bed but wanted some time to wind down first.I'm really trying to practice doing what Psalms 61:2 says...When My heart is faint (overwhelmed) lead me to the rock that is higher than I.  I need to learn this and am trying to give everything over to God.  I know I will still have bad days sometimes but I don't want to breakdown in front of people anymore..All I know is that God is with me and he hears me when I cry out to  him. He hears me not only on my bad days but also on my good days.
 I want to live my life to glorify God and I will use the strange time to lead others to him and show them that no matter how alone I feel or how much I want to cry it's ok because he hears me and is here to comfort me and give me peace.
 It's only been 2 months today.... I will find our new normal and it will feel good and right. Being Copelan's mom is the most rewarding and beautiful thing I have ever experienced.  All of this change I believe is normal and will take time..Someday I will look back on this and be so glad I went through it and will be stronger for it. I am so glad that God knows what he is doing!!!!!! : ) :) I serve a mighty and wonderful God
FYI: I've had soooo much coffee today but I'm still tried and will sleep good tonight.
 Psalm 62:5-8
Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
    my hope comes from him.
6 Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
    he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my honor depend on God[c];
    he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
8 Trust in him at all times, you people;
    pour out your hearts to him,
    for God is our refuge.

Psalm63:3-8

3 Because your love is better than life,
    my lips will glorify you.
4 I will praise you as long as I live,
    and in your name I will lift up my hands.
5 I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods;
    with singing lips my mouth will praise you.

6 On my bed I remember you;
    I think of you through the watches of the night.
7 Because you are my help,
    I sing in the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you;
    your right hand upholds me.