Dr. Phil

Last night Josh worked overtime so he didn't get home until 2 am. I had an awful time sleeping and i sure felt the effects today. After lunch i decided to stay home nap and rest."  In a world of talk only one person will listen and that is Dr. Phil" This is what I hear when I wake up. Instantly in my head I'm like no way you can't tell me that Dr.Phil (who is smart but i don't agree with alot) is the only person who listens to us, troubled people.  The way that they put it just troubled me. Yes i do believe he helps alot of people, but in no way shape or form is he the only one who listens.
My God not only listens but he never leaves me and he has the best advice that anyone could ever give.  I just want anyone who doesn't think there isn't anyone out there listening or cares that there is. His name is Jesus Christ and all you have to do is talk to him and ask him for his help and for his love to come into your life.  Jesus Christ can give you what Dr.Phil and ANYONE else can't give you.

free and flying

Friday Josh had off work and we had the opportunity to spend the day with some of his family in Holmes county. Oh what a beautiful place it is there. We ate homemade Amish pie and lots of cheese. Yummy! Saw lots of cows and goats and horses. The farm life was amazing and it is just cool to see.  So After a long fun day of exploring we went back to his Aunts Lake house. it is in the woods and so beautiful. there was so much wildlife and nature. They decided we should take a ride in the Miada and tour the place. Now for those of you who do not know a Miada is a car..I of course did not know this. it is a two seater but I got to sit on the back:) This car's top was down and the sun was shiny and it was a nice cool evening.
 We went down death hill ( sounds scary) which was a very steep hill. We are going down and put my arms out and I pretended like I  was flying. we all did this as kids I am sure and yes I still do things like this. it was so fun and freeing. I could not hear the conversation going on between the others in the car it was just me and my hair blowing in the wind as free as could be.
As i was having the time of my life i thought if only life could be as freeing as this. But really it is..you see if we block out all the things in our head sometimes and just spend time with God it is freeing. Just as i couldn't tell what the conversation was in the car with the others God wants us to do that in life. He wants us to make it so it is just us and him, and to feel free..the kind of freedom where we know without a doubt we can do anything. We can face any problem and take down any evil villain(fleas in our small apartment) I loved that feeling..the wind blowing, the nature and feeling like a child again. lets go back and be childlike and let God free us. :)

August

This month plays a significant role in our life. Last year at this time Josh was about to propose to me. So crazy that a year has gone by and now we are married. So many things have happend in the past year. So many things that we can thank God for. In the past year we have both had steady jobs that were able to pay for our wedding and  are able to pay for bills. We are married and live a good life. Next August we will look back and think again on all the changes and how far we have come.
 Everyday is a new day.  A new day to change and to look at all the changes around you and how far we have come. No matter how hard life is I will thank God for where we are and where he is taking us. August is a significant month not only because we got engaged, but Josh got his first gift from me. He got a new pair of shoes for his birthday. Last year we sat in this same apartment as he opened that gift, and now sitting in here in this office that used to be a spare bedroom and thinking of Josh spending his upcoming birthday at whirlpool, I thank God for his Job and for how far we have come. The Lord truly has blessed me with a wonderful husband, and he has blessed us with love.

moving forward

There is a time in life to move forward in every aspect.  This is just what me and Josh are doing starting this week. Now yes, it does sound easier than it will be. We have some things to get done in our life. After four months of marriage we still have not gone to the social security office and gotten all the official stuff done, nor have I gotten my license. there are many more things but these are the biggest. With work schedules and our lack of time it in all reality will be hard to move forward. Being still kinda newlyweds we are still figuring alot of things out. Moving forward and gettign things done is a decision we have made. I mean hey it has to be done sometime.
Moving forward in all aspects of life also goes for our spiritual life. I find myself being way more emotional than usual. Not just about normal things but about God things. I know God has a plan and he is working and doing things that we don't see. To think of that amazes me and brings me to tears. Moving forward with God one day at a time is exciting. Like I tell the kids every Sunday it's not easy..We have to wake up and ask God for the strength and the Joy.  I say that to the kids knowing that I have to say that alot.
Moving forward doesnt mean that we zip right through it, but that we will wait. we will move in babysteps and God will give us strength. Weither it is getting my license as a 22 year old or trusting in him with finances. Everyday God will see us and he walk beside us. Jesus moves forward with us everyday:)

getting rid of fleas

We have yes been dealing with a flea problem. Never had to try and take care of it myslef. By that I mean my own house and not being in my paretns house where they take care of all that stuff. yesterday we had a fun day of cleaning and bathing Zoe. (dog) Today we  decided to have fun family time at parents house while we bombed the house to get rid of the fleas. See we had to cover everything up, and leave for a few hours. We came back to open windows and air out the hosue and to uncover everything. After all of this I am seriously hoping that we are rid of fleas.
 You see as i think about today and the events that have taken place lately I realized that we need God to de flea us..haha Ok so we do not have fleas, but we have things in our life that we need to get out. There comes a time when we have to get fed up with it and let God take care of it. This could be a long process.  So this morning in church I ask God to please take all the things from my heart that i don't want there. I have slowly throughout the day been feeling the windows of my heart open up and God push his love and all of his qualities that I want, inside me. 
  Maybe you don't see the comparisson of fleas and me, but as I was getting more fed up with the fleas I realized this morning that i was getting so fed up with me. The feelings I was having and just not being christlike at all..I can't live in my house and relax with fleas and God can not live in me and do what he needs to do with ugly things in my heart.

traveling pants, getting older, and living a life that counts

Well the title of the blog is yes rather strange but a mixture of a few things that are just jumbled in my mind. My favorite book series is and always will be Sisterhood of the traveling pants. The author has just finsihed the fifth book and it is now 10 years later. The characters are now reaching the age of 30, and are still discovering who they are and their purpose.  they are lost i must say..they have no Jesus.  They are running, searching, crying out, and asking all the wrong people. (trying nto to give it all away)
   Life indeed is harder and I am realizing everyday it gets a little harder. I don't understand most things in life, but yet i have this joy and peace everyday. Somedays it doesnt come as easy..Jesus makes my life worthwhile, and although i find myself sometimes just wandering in circles I find hope in my Jesus.
   truth is, without God we run and search and scream for answers..and really i still do that but the differnece is my God he pulls me back in.  He wraps me in his love and lets me cry and even scream if i want..it is so reasuring and amazing that he has a plan for our lives.  All we have to do is live a life for him and trust in him.  Simple..wake up in the morning give your day to him and claim that your day is gonna rock!
  Like this book series my life has progressed and I have grown up. (I still have a way to go..) I started these books at the age of 15 and now being 22 I still love them and each of them takes me back. This last book is about change, change, and more change..my life is about change but my God is about staying forever and EVER!!

Blessings of marriage

 God is doing new things in our lives everyday. The blessings of marriage get better everyday.  It is still so hard to beleive that i have married the man of my dreams, and it has been 3 months. We have new adventures everyday it seems with things that you don't think about before marriage. I cook way more than i ever had before, I constantly make sure the door is locked, i enjoy cleaning and making my house look nice, and i enjoy doing anything for him. I love packing his lunch, making breakfast(does not happen much anymore) making our meals even if i only use the microwave..haha. Just thinking about how blessed I am makes me tear up.
Only 3 months and it seems like longer..There is still so much i know we will go through, but as long as we put God first i know we will be good :) God has a plan and as a line from a song says " you hold the universe You hold everyoen on earth" He does he holds us all, in our troubles and our fears, and in our best days. I am so excited for our future and everything God has for our lives.  Right now though i will not miss all the fun little things in our life. I love everything we have right now and everything we do from watchin tv shows on netflix  to taking a day trip out of town. Everything is fun when it is together, and we always keep this love that we have.