Things look different than they did when we only had one kid...getting pregnant with your first obviously changes things in your life in a big way, but having the second has changed things in a completely new way. I don't get much sleep at all anymore but I'm learning how to be patient in a whole new way. Taking care of a very well behaved but loud and adventurous toddler and a newborn at the same time while having no sleep is a whole new world.
This morning Kate ( the 3 week old) was up a little before 5 and I can handle that. I figured I will feed her then I will have plenty of time to do my daily devotion and have some quiet time. That plan didn't work..Copelan ( my 18 month old) woke up at 5:30. He woke up very happy and was really good all morning so at least I knew he slept well. So far my daily devotion and bible reading was done from my phone while I fed kate and prayer time was on the couch with the t.v. on and a baby on my lap.
I've stopped saying ( for awhile anyway) that things will get done during naptime. Most days if both kids are napping at the same time then I also need to lay down and nap/rest so I am a pleasant person the rest of the day.
Things will keep looking different...this week my husband will be going to 2nd shift. It will be really nice having him here during the day but nights will be different now. It's one of those things you cant fully prepare for or know how it will go until it happens. I'm not saying things won't be tough and are not tough already with a new adjustment of having a newborn but God is preparing us and doing something new in us everyday. Life isn't easy and God doesn't call us to live an easy life. With that comes change and "different"
God is with us in the change and when things start to look different and we are not sure where to go or what to do. I think it's important to remember that! My time spent with God is not "quiet" most times anymore. I used to have this perfect time with candles and worship music my journal and bible out..it was my time with God. That is very different. I had to learn that God is here and still wants me to be with him even if its not quiet. He wants me to come to him when things are loud and hectic and when things are peaceful and quiet. I'm learning so much and I will continue to in these different times. I don't want to write to much but I also want you all to be encouraged and to know that our God is big and his plans for us are big. We have to let him change us and work through us in our difficult times and remember that he is with us in those times and wherever we are.
Monday, April 3, 2017
Tuesday, January 10, 2017
In this season
Remember this post is being written by a woman who is 7 months pregnant and has a 1 year old. 😊😉 Life has a been a little tough lately..I have started not sleeping well, which leaves me so exhausted and kinda grumpy at times. My body is uncomfortable and hurts so that's been fun.
Yesterday was one of those days where I was completely overwhelmed by life ( I had one of these days Saturday to) When I am overly tired I can be someone who is overwhelmed and overthinking everything.
So this morning it's 3 am and I am awake every part of my back hurts and I can't do anything to help it so I turn a heating pad on and try to sleep...4 am Josh gets up for work and I try some more..finally I start praying and telling God all my worries and everything I am thinking...try to sleep again...4:45 time to get up!
Honestly as much fun as not sleeping is😏 I have been meditating on a verse and really trying to apply it to my life right now. Proverbs 31:25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
The definition of the word strength is mental power, moral power, firmness or courage. The definition of dignity is self respect or appreciation. I always looked at this verse and picture a woman laughing, not really joyful just laughing at whatever will happen she knows she can take it. This is sort of the case except I don't think she is really laughing out loud..I think she stands up and takes a deep breath and with confidence says God I trust you and I give all these things that are to come over to you.
Yesterday was one of those days where I was completely overwhelmed by life ( I had one of these days Saturday to) When I am overly tired I can be someone who is overwhelmed and overthinking everything.
So this morning it's 3 am and I am awake every part of my back hurts and I can't do anything to help it so I turn a heating pad on and try to sleep...4 am Josh gets up for work and I try some more..finally I start praying and telling God all my worries and everything I am thinking...try to sleep again...4:45 time to get up!
Honestly as much fun as not sleeping is😏 I have been meditating on a verse and really trying to apply it to my life right now. Proverbs 31:25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
I have really been applying this verse because as a mom of a a 1 year old, 7 months pregnant a wife, and a ministry leader, I find myself lately getting very overwhelmed with what is to come. Did you get that..? I said what is to come not what is here now and happening. Why am I worrying myself with what has not yet happened!?
God has not called any of us to stress and worry he has called us to confidence and strength and yes life is hard and exhausting but God will lead you through the season you are in now and the seasons to come. It's only 7 am and I have a whole day ahead of me so later when the tiredness comes and i need rest and I get stressed I will stop and give it over to God and let it go...
Where ever you are today and I don't mean at home or work I mean emotionally and spiritually read this verse meditate on it and ask God to help you be clothed in confidence and strength. You can do this!
We are Alive in him
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QYRYtc4SFkg
Friday, November 4, 2016
coffee and a chocolate chip cookie..A totally real post
Today is one of those days...my 14 month old is getting in another tooth so was extremely fussy and clingy. We went for a walk which eventually put him to sleep so I'm hoping he gets a good long nap. The house feels like a disaster...there are small bowls and plates on the floor throughout the house that my son has left which I will pick up then later they will be back out. You may be saying stop complaining and put them up higher. First of all there is nowhere else for them and second if its not small plates and bowls its something else hes carrying and leaving on the floor to be picked up. It is literally just a part of parenthood in my opinion. The dishes are piled high and today is laundry day. Normally Fridays are exciting and relaxing we do laundry and just chill out no stress. For some reason I woke up literally feeling like a zombie..so tired no motivation or energy of course it could be the tiny little girl growing inside me as well...(hehe so excited we are having a girl by the way)
Normally I post something profound or something I've gotten from my bible reading but I have nothing today..not yet anyway. I just sit here with a chocolate chip cookie (Annies organic which makes it better for you right!? haha) and a cup of decaf coffee being totally open and real about life today. I'm involved in a bible study and we were saying this past week how you don't see when people have their bad days on social media it's all butterflies and flowers and how great everything is. I admit I don't post a lot on social media and when I do it's nothing negative, but we all have bad days right? Lets be real..not everyday is cupcakes and songs so I decided to be real with you all today because sometimes people are struggling and they need to know they are not the only ones.
Here is my advice take a few minutes to rest drink coffee eat a cookie ( even if you are trying to be fit and healthy) turn some music on and do what needs done with a positive attitude :)
I will leave you with that today...As I do dishes, laundry, pick up the house and take some time to rest and spend time with the Lord. So Turn the music up ( well unless your child is napping) sing and talk to God and relax. You may not feel awesome but just do something and have some coffee and lots of Jesus when you have these days.
I already feel better.. :)
Normally I post something profound or something I've gotten from my bible reading but I have nothing today..not yet anyway. I just sit here with a chocolate chip cookie (Annies organic which makes it better for you right!? haha) and a cup of decaf coffee being totally open and real about life today. I'm involved in a bible study and we were saying this past week how you don't see when people have their bad days on social media it's all butterflies and flowers and how great everything is. I admit I don't post a lot on social media and when I do it's nothing negative, but we all have bad days right? Lets be real..not everyday is cupcakes and songs so I decided to be real with you all today because sometimes people are struggling and they need to know they are not the only ones.
Here is my advice take a few minutes to rest drink coffee eat a cookie ( even if you are trying to be fit and healthy) turn some music on and do what needs done with a positive attitude :)
I will leave you with that today...As I do dishes, laundry, pick up the house and take some time to rest and spend time with the Lord. So Turn the music up ( well unless your child is napping) sing and talk to God and relax. You may not feel awesome but just do something and have some coffee and lots of Jesus when you have these days.
I already feel better.. :)
Thursday, October 13, 2016
Enjoy the quietness
well I've been awake for 3 hours already...I decided this morning instead of trying to go back to sleep when Josh leaves for work that I would just make myself do what I've been wanting saying I will do for 2 weeks now. For 2 weeks now I've layed in bed in the mornings trying to talk myself into getting up and starting my day before Copelan wakes up...but I just can't do it. This morning there was victory! I did it at 4 :45 i got up and showered had some breakfast and time in the word. I felt accomplished...7:15 Copelan is still asleep so i pack his lunch for the day get some meat out of the freezer to thaw...me and Luna keep going to the stairs and listening because it is now 7:46 and he's still asleep..this my friends is not normal.
What do I do with all this time of quiet..? I guess I just enjoy it..enjoy the stillness and quietness of the morning before the busyness starts. you see if we don't allow ourselves time for the stillness we tend to go a little crazy. we get tired and worn out and just exhausted, and I will most likely be more tired than normal when afternoon comes but giving myself this time is wise.
We want to be wise with our choices and our time. This morning as I was studying the book of Deuteronomy I once again was hit with the thought that as a parent I need to make wise decisions and choices. My kids will see the things I do and the way I act and I want to be that example to them.
In Deuteronomy 1:21-22 Moses is talking to all the people and as he's talking he's saying "you" All the adults that were with him when they left Egypt are now dead so hes addressing all of their children. He says "you" because they take responsibility for their parents sin. So Moses addresses them as if it was them who was rebellious all those years.
- This passage is another clear indication that what we do as parents affects our children and the generations to come. I am not perfect nor will I ever be but I know as a parent I need God's guidance everyday. I will not set unrealistic expectations for myself ( like waking up everyday at 4:45 am) but I will do my best to slow down and set aside time to spend quietly in the presence of God. This will not happen everyday I'm sure of it because some days I am completely exhausted and God knows that but like I said I will try my best and if I wake up early or get time in the afternoon everyday then great but if not I will not stress. God wants us to come to him because we want to not because we have to check something off of our to do list.
What do I do with all this time of quiet..? I guess I just enjoy it..enjoy the stillness and quietness of the morning before the busyness starts. you see if we don't allow ourselves time for the stillness we tend to go a little crazy. we get tired and worn out and just exhausted, and I will most likely be more tired than normal when afternoon comes but giving myself this time is wise.
We want to be wise with our choices and our time. This morning as I was studying the book of Deuteronomy I once again was hit with the thought that as a parent I need to make wise decisions and choices. My kids will see the things I do and the way I act and I want to be that example to them.
In Deuteronomy 1:21-22 Moses is talking to all the people and as he's talking he's saying "you" All the adults that were with him when they left Egypt are now dead so hes addressing all of their children. He says "you" because they take responsibility for their parents sin. So Moses addresses them as if it was them who was rebellious all those years.
- This passage is another clear indication that what we do as parents affects our children and the generations to come. I am not perfect nor will I ever be but I know as a parent I need God's guidance everyday. I will not set unrealistic expectations for myself ( like waking up everyday at 4:45 am) but I will do my best to slow down and set aside time to spend quietly in the presence of God. This will not happen everyday I'm sure of it because some days I am completely exhausted and God knows that but like I said I will try my best and if I wake up early or get time in the afternoon everyday then great but if not I will not stress. God wants us to come to him because we want to not because we have to check something off of our to do list.
Friday, April 1, 2016
The struggle is real..
It's 9:23 am and I've already had a cup of coffee, went on a walk/jog had breakfast and got my little one down for a nap..I feel pretty accomplished! its a little chilly our for a walk but I bundled my little guy up and we just went for a short one which put him to sleep. :) I needed some energy which I knew A nice cool brisk walk would do and he needed a nap. I now feel ready and better about taking on this day..I woke up this morning thinking AHH i just want to sleep! Want to hear something funny..!? Monday I was up at 4:45 not by choice..and I said hey I think I am becoming a morning person this isn't so bad. well now its Friday and I am definitely not a morning person yet.
Here is something I have been trying to do every morning when I hear cope cry and I wake up I immediately thank God for this day and ask him to strengthen me and give me joy and help me to have a great day.
I obvious don't get a giant boost of energy but I am starting my day off right..we can't go through our life or even our day without the help and the strength of God. I actually like waking up early most days and getting the day started. Last weekend I slept in and it totally threw me off. it's still a struggle though to open my eyes and get out of bed when all my body wants to do is sleep.
I am talking about something small like sleep and waking up in the mornings..we all have to wake up in the mornings. Whether it is for work, to get your kids up for school, or your kids wake you up for some reason or another we all have to wake up in the morning at a time we don't want to but there are other things in life we have to do that is a struggle for us. Example* going to work, working with people who are not nice, going to school, school work, looking for a job, making friends, fear of failing, fitting in, trying to be the best we can be..we all struggle with things whatever it may be.
Something I have told my kids on Sunday mornings a lot is go to God, talk to him, tell him your fears your struggles start your day with him and ask him to help you. which is why I have been practicing it..i try to practice what I preach.
So I encourage you wherever you are today to tell God about it! :)
Psalm 143:8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life
Psalm 5:3 In the morning, O LORD, hear my voice. In the morning I lay my needs in front of you, and I wait.
Psalm 86:11-12 Teach me your way, LORD, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name. I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever.
Psalm 59:16 But as for me, I will sing about your power.Each morning I will sing with joy about your unfailing love.For you have been my refuge, a place of safety when I am in distress.
Thessalonians 5:16-18 Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ms8MSKcPpPU
Here is something I have been trying to do every morning when I hear cope cry and I wake up I immediately thank God for this day and ask him to strengthen me and give me joy and help me to have a great day.
I obvious don't get a giant boost of energy but I am starting my day off right..we can't go through our life or even our day without the help and the strength of God. I actually like waking up early most days and getting the day started. Last weekend I slept in and it totally threw me off. it's still a struggle though to open my eyes and get out of bed when all my body wants to do is sleep.
I am talking about something small like sleep and waking up in the mornings..we all have to wake up in the mornings. Whether it is for work, to get your kids up for school, or your kids wake you up for some reason or another we all have to wake up in the morning at a time we don't want to but there are other things in life we have to do that is a struggle for us. Example* going to work, working with people who are not nice, going to school, school work, looking for a job, making friends, fear of failing, fitting in, trying to be the best we can be..we all struggle with things whatever it may be.
Something I have told my kids on Sunday mornings a lot is go to God, talk to him, tell him your fears your struggles start your day with him and ask him to help you. which is why I have been practicing it..i try to practice what I preach.
So I encourage you wherever you are today to tell God about it! :)
Psalm 143:8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life
Psalm 5:3 In the morning, O LORD, hear my voice. In the morning I lay my needs in front of you, and I wait.
Psalm 86:11-12 Teach me your way, LORD, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name. I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever.
Psalm 59:16 But as for me, I will sing about your power.Each morning I will sing with joy about your unfailing love.For you have been my refuge, a place of safety when I am in distress.
Thessalonians 5:16-18 Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ms8MSKcPpPU
Thursday, March 31, 2016
I'm a little crazy....there is a little crazy in all of us right!!??
Haven't posted in awhile because of well the busyness of life..Life definitely hasn't slowed down if anything it has sped up a bit. Cope is now almost 7 months old...Wow! Next Tuesday he will be 7 months old..how fast time is going and how fast he is growing. He has his first tooth coming in which we discovered on Sunday. We have been saying he's teething for awhile and now we know.
I feel like in this post I am going to be brutally honest about my life right now as a mom of an almost 7 month old...so no judging..Please! :)
I am finally learning some balance in my life even though everywhere I look is craziness because of all that needs to be done I now know just take a deep breath, prioritize and do what needs to be done. There are chores to be done around the house, clean up the highchair from breakfast, get everything finished up and emailed out for Sunday morning, and get a shower today. Did I say shower..!!?? yes I did now you must be thinking how hard is it to shower...not to hard i guess..But when I finally think I am going to take one and relax I was exhausted so today it will happen. Last night me and Cope stayed home from church because he was super fussy from teething..so we ate dinner, danced around the house, went outside for a little bit, played then he got tired about 7:30 so we ate an apple together ( he mainly just sucked on it and gnawed a little) then walked around the house until Josh got home then I handed him off and sat on the couch soo tired.
So today will be the day..even though I am sure i will get spit up on again covered in food from his meals and maybe even get some pee on me..its ok..The shower has been put off long enough!
Who's reading this and thinking wow she's crazy glad I'm not her!? Just so you know it's all worth it..I literally am crying now as I type that sentence. every diaper, every spit up. every cry and long exhausting day is so worth it. Being a mom is the most rewarding thing..How is it rewarding? I make food for Cope, clean up after him, make dinner for us, clean up the house ( Josh helps out a lot) by the end of the night I fall asleep faster than ever. The reward..is the smiles Cope gives me, going into his room in the morning and he looks up at me and smiles so big, and just being the one he cuddles with and depends on. My coffee is cold...
It is a reward to be home with him everyday and spend the time with him and take care of my family in different ways. Wherever you are today..stay at home mom, working mom, expecting mom, wanting to be a mom, trying to figure out life, the woman who needs direction... YOU ARE ENOUGH! YOU ARE AWESOME! God is working in you and through you..let him give you rest and peace and the energy you need. Trust him! HE LOVES YOU AND HE CREATED YOU FOR A PURPOSE! Give your worries, fears, tears, joy, hectic, crazy, boring, whatever your life may be filled with give it to him let him turn your life into something wonderful and worth telling about. let hm turn your frown upside down..:)
Psalm 139 1-18
I feel like in this post I am going to be brutally honest about my life right now as a mom of an almost 7 month old...so no judging..Please! :)
I am finally learning some balance in my life even though everywhere I look is craziness because of all that needs to be done I now know just take a deep breath, prioritize and do what needs to be done. There are chores to be done around the house, clean up the highchair from breakfast, get everything finished up and emailed out for Sunday morning, and get a shower today. Did I say shower..!!?? yes I did now you must be thinking how hard is it to shower...not to hard i guess..But when I finally think I am going to take one and relax I was exhausted so today it will happen. Last night me and Cope stayed home from church because he was super fussy from teething..so we ate dinner, danced around the house, went outside for a little bit, played then he got tired about 7:30 so we ate an apple together ( he mainly just sucked on it and gnawed a little) then walked around the house until Josh got home then I handed him off and sat on the couch soo tired.
So today will be the day..even though I am sure i will get spit up on again covered in food from his meals and maybe even get some pee on me..its ok..The shower has been put off long enough!
Who's reading this and thinking wow she's crazy glad I'm not her!? Just so you know it's all worth it..I literally am crying now as I type that sentence. every diaper, every spit up. every cry and long exhausting day is so worth it. Being a mom is the most rewarding thing..How is it rewarding? I make food for Cope, clean up after him, make dinner for us, clean up the house ( Josh helps out a lot) by the end of the night I fall asleep faster than ever. The reward..is the smiles Cope gives me, going into his room in the morning and he looks up at me and smiles so big, and just being the one he cuddles with and depends on. My coffee is cold...
It is a reward to be home with him everyday and spend the time with him and take care of my family in different ways. Wherever you are today..stay at home mom, working mom, expecting mom, wanting to be a mom, trying to figure out life, the woman who needs direction... YOU ARE ENOUGH! YOU ARE AWESOME! God is working in you and through you..let him give you rest and peace and the energy you need. Trust him! HE LOVES YOU AND HE CREATED YOU FOR A PURPOSE! Give your worries, fears, tears, joy, hectic, crazy, boring, whatever your life may be filled with give it to him let him turn your life into something wonderful and worth telling about. let hm turn your frown upside down..:)
Psalm 139 1-18
You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
Friday, February 12, 2016
If there is one thing that I have learned this week...
I just wrote a whole post but erased it all and left this because if there is one thing that this week has taught me it really has been this. Colossians 4:2 says to continue steadfastly in prayer being watchful in it with thanksgiving. This is the verse for our children's ministry to memorize this month and boy does this short verse say a lot. Continue steadfastly in prayer..The word steadfast means Firm or unwavering, to be loyal. I and you need to continue in prayer without wavering and with commitment. No matter what changes in our lives and how hard life gets commit to prayer..talk to the God who loves you and created you. Make it a priority to commit yourself to prayer on the good days and the bad days. Here is a song that I discovered yesterday and I want to share it you https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=beB-aH8vis8
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